Physical Emotion

I wouldn't say that I am a very emotional guy.  In fact, it is difficult for me to understand really understand someone who lives their life by emotions.  I think Emily would agree that I don't have too many really highs and really lows. 

I'm not sure why I'm like this.  I'm not sure if this is something that I was born with or if this is something that I learned to adapt to pain.  Either way, it takes a great deal....or hitting the right nerve for me to "feel" something greatly. 

I can remember 3 times specifically that emotion has hit me so hard that I felt it in a physical way.

1. When I got married, I remember staring at Emily during our vows and feeling my throat have a lump in it and a tingle through my body due to the love that I felt and maybe the magnitude of this decision.
2. At our reception, we had so many out of state friends show up with very little notice as well as my mom and all of my siblings (which is very rare to have them all in 1 room).  I think because of their generosity and love that they showed by coming, I was reallly overwhelmed when I tried to thank everyone.
3. When Owen was born, I went from shock & awe at the miracle of birth to a little worry when the doctors came around to look at his breathing to elation when I held him for the 1st time.  I could feel it all over my body the joy that I was experiencing.

I say all of that to state that something has changed in me.  Now, all I need to do is think about that little guy or see a picture of him or have him say "Daddy" and run to my open arms and I can just feel the warmth of joy spread through my body.  Normally your heart is something that you can never feel but just know that it is working and doing its job, but in those times I think I can feel my heart literally and I find myself struggling to keep the emotions from pouring out through my tear ducts.  Even as I write this, just thinking of him, I feel it in my throat.  He is such a joy with his constant smile and personality. 

I thought I'd go back and show several pics of the dude that warm my heart:

Smiling even with a hand in his mouth

 

 

Right beside Dad

 

 

How did he get mixed in with the laundry?

 

 

Greatest onesie of all time

 

 

How this pic isn't framed and on everyone's desk is beyond me

 

 

Can't be too angry when he's this cute

 

 

Does it get cuter than this pic?  I defy you to prove otherwise.

 

 

Love taking my Dude to the zoo

 

 

O-H-I-O